me (:

ups and downs.

2009-12-06T15:58:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since i blogged. And thing been happening so much through the months.
Firstly i just want to wish us happy 5monthsary!

things got soo many ups and downs lately.
yesh is getting tough. very tough.
but nevermind. if we put our minds together and work things out. im sure we will be perfectly fine.
im sure about that.
yes. we have been through so much together.
you have been so patient and you put on so many sacrifices.
i thank you for that dear. for what i can see you getting more and more mature.
and you are able to think well. well done my love!!!
the situation we having now is the biggest challenge we have to face.
let's us be strong together we can make the difference.
because two is better than one!
i will always support you. i will always be there when you need me.
i here to lend you my shoulder to cry on. my arms to hold on.
my hug. my kisses. my words.
and lastly, myself to you!

I love you so much my love....
forever and ever babe.
=)

Fall for you.

2009-10-04T16:52:00.002+08:00

Its been a long since i write a post. So i still got the time to write just before the next book in.

You are the one who put so much pressure and effort.
Without your comfort and care, i might not standing up till now.
To be honest i'm not that strong to stand on my own.
You give me strength.
You give me hope.
You show me what's true love.
Your patience has no limitation.
Your sacrifices just blown me away.
Your words that makes me to keep holding on.
Your love,
Your touch,
Your smile,
Your voice, just make me so much closer to you everyday.
I love you so much.
Never will i stop loving you.
Because the girl like you is impossible to find.

ILOVEYOU.

=)

2009-09-27T17:51:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 3MONTHSARY DEAR!!!!
(29September2009)

iloveyou so much!!
thanks for being so strong dear!
muaaaackx!
=)

=)

2009-09-20T06:43:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK!
NS life was a hell zone!
hahah.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.
Im glad to spent together with you dear.

Lucky you to have seen my unglam botak head in your house.
haha. So embarrassing can. heh.
Botak still hot right. Couldn't imagine i drop till 67kg. haha

iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou.
imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou.
xoxo!

happy.

2009-09-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes I feel like I'm still dreaming,
It seems like everyday you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected, so connected over space and time."

This is real. Ohh so real.
When out to buka with dear's family.
That is one whole new experience to be in that family
And ohh its their anniversary! So happy anniversary to both of you! =D
I managed to mix around well with them. We are connected. Especially by her mom.
How cool was that! hahha!
Coolios!
=D

Dear,
Everything i do i do it for us. I even told in front of you parents.
And that shows how well and sincere and seriousness i am to you.
I even climb the mountain with the patient i built in me.
And these show everything.
Now having our parents support it seem so smooth now. No worries.
iloveyou forever and ever.

whoohoo.

2009-09-04T13:54:00.002+08:00

everything seem so whooohoooooooooooooo!!!!!
Happy happy happppppppyyy!
Friday 04septemer2009!
iloveyou.
APPROVED.

so the feeling of super retard before i enter that house. My lungs were about to burst.
hahaha. On the other hand, her mom opened the door with super cute smile.
I give my super innocent smile back at her. =)
I was super nervous that i perspired all over. just she didn't open the window and never on the fan!! see laahh... haha.
her mom say this. "you want tissue? there take the tissue box."
and i was like, "oh okay thanks"
then she say this "you can have all if you want."
like whutttttt. haha. it was one-on-one conversations okay. who didn't get nervous!
yes with all the questions and stuff.
and all the matured questions. hahah! ooops!.
hahaha! that is super random i tell you.
That 90mins turn to be super exiciting one..

hahaha.
iloveyou.
=)

nervous? or nerve breaking?

2009-09-04T07:09:00.002+08:00

This is weird. Her mom just talked to me on the phone!
Is this like once in the lifetime thing. You know what i mean.. hahaha.
Her mom wants me to come over to her place and interrogate? At super early time. 11am!
Hahaha! this is a super nerve breaking. It make me feel super sick already.
All i hope it turn out so well and nothing will change.
Pray for me dear.
=)

iloveyou.

Song for you.

2009-09-02T09:10:00.002+08:00

2am I lie down deep in slumber,
Feelings are falling downwards,
I want to forget,
Waking up I hear the way your voice sounds,
My heart starts to pound now,
To the rhythm of yours.
You're so angelic, Your words so symphonic.
Touch your lips to my soul, eat this sorrow away.
How am I so lucky I found you?

Sometimes I feel like I'm still dreaming,
It seems like everyday you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected, so connected over space and time.

When we talk about all my old drama,
You look at me and wonder, how I'm not insane.
Every week the days seem to get longer,
But you know our love gets stronger, with every word we say,
Stronger every day.
You know I would do anything for you.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected, so connected over space and time.

If you were feeling down, you know I feel it now.
We give each other strength to make it through the darkness.
You take me to a place I never want to leave.
I'm in my deepest dream, I don't ever want to wake up.
I'll fight til' I die. I won't say goodbye and I won't let this pass me by.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday, you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected,so connected over space and time.

Let's go run away now.
Let's go away,go away to someplace safe, I want all,
now I want everything.
This is how we stay so connected, so connected over space and time.

two months

2009-08-29T15:54:00.003+08:00

Dear,
HAPPY TWO MONTHSARY!
Ohh you know how it feels right my dear... =)

"A loving heart is the truest wisdom."
Charles Dickens

She always been the one beside me whenever im up or down.
She will never fail to make me smile.
Even just for awhile.
For that i can say she is the best.
=)

iloveyou.

ego

2009-08-27T21:48:00.003+08:00

"Ego - An exaggerated sense of self-importance; conceit."

Ego. Indeed all of us have ego within our self.
The stupid thing is its hard to overcome ego because they come surprisingly without letting us know.
Like wtf. Hahaha.
Me being not too egoistic make me one just now. I think i've let you down.
But yet you made it alright for us. Iloveyou.

I may not be the sweetest partner you can imagine for.
I may not be the perfect partner you can imagine for.
But i can be the one who can care and treasure you every single day.
Because i love you .

ily

2009-08-24T18:12:00.003+08:00

Donut donut donut donut donut donut.
1,2,3,4,5 and 6 donuts.
Nicely bought donuts.
Haha.

Your smile just make my day dear.
Even its just for few minutes.
Did groceries with you just know was so fun.
You even don't know what is corn beef? haha.
Funny lah you dear.
Okay okay next time i invent a super size trolley for you okay dear.
hhaha. Then you can like sit on it.. hahaha.
Like a small baby... =)

Its been two days fasting with you.

Im starting to like it already. haha.

I love you.

Unglam

2009-08-21T23:06:00.003+08:00

Haha!
Sorry dear! haha.
Im so itchy to put this unglam picture of us! =)
Yay!

I LOVE YOU.

FASTING! AHH..

Vivo

2009-08-18T09:22:00.003+08:00

Managed to crop pictures. =)
Vivo-ed yesterday.
We had so much fun.
Soon Soon.. Milooooooooo!
Hahaha!

I love you so much.

-

2009-08-12T19:43:00.002+08:00

It's been awesome.
No worries.
All i can say i am happy of what i am now.
Oh you make my day everyday dear.
"That girl with the cute chubby face."
Heh. =)

Dear,
I love you.
And i know you will be sad when i'm away.
Be strong okay dear. I'm always be there for you.
Cute! =)

cool video.

2009-08-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

Omg this is super cool shit.

=.=

2009-07-31T10:03:00.002+08:00

" When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine. "

Starts now.

2009-07-29T21:17:00.001+08:00

So, it all begins noow.
Today.

Bored!

2009-07-29T14:06:00.004+08:00

Im too bored at home.
Anyway.
Happy 1st Month Anniversary Dear.
Its been a pleasure to spent my life with you.
I love you.
Forever and ever babe.

I got so bored!
Let's watch this old funny advertisement.
Wassup....!!

shit.

2009-07-16T21:51:00.002+08:00

Feel shit do bring me down.
I totally hate it. Its been continuously.
Oh please lah. Give peace can.
I cant like being in this state every now and then.
I know his your friend.
At least tell him his limits or something.
I can't simply know everything.
Or just tell him of from asking.
Oh please. I just cant feel annoy everytime lah.

Wise man do say to me:
Love is like dark chocolate; bitterness but sweetness lies with it.

i am sorry to be mean. he make you as a special friend indeed. if i can just say fuck off to him will be nice.
i dont care if he is your friend. why must it be this far? stay friend okay what. if you can like tell him off will be nice.
dear you are taken. you know what to do.
i love you.

Outright fines

2009-07-16T14:36:00.002+08:00

I'm like so freaking bored at home.
Doing nothing at home can make me fat.
Shit!

Then i came across this article.

"Outright fines for commuter caught eating and drinking in MRT trains, stations."
I thought government was joking about fining people but i was wrong. Why must everything be money when come to Singapore? I think i spent my money much on the country rather then myself. And now they are going to fine commuters who drink and eat. I simple think is not fair at all. I was being fine before not by eating but by miss out my fare on a bus journey. To make it worst it was only one stop away from my destination. I have to pay fine just because of that.
Then they want to make us pay if we eat or drink in the MRT. What if the commuter is a baby or a child. Don't tell me they want to make them pay as well? I just don't understand why the law is getting weird each year. I wonder.

On the other hand.
Going Jurong Point.
Alone....
Taxi then..
Rich man son now. =)

whooo

2009-07-15T19:33:00.003+08:00

The ending part was.
Whooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!

So cool.
I'm happy when you're happy.
=)

I love you.

ahh.

2009-07-15T15:25:00.003+08:00

Bored bored bored.
This is all i can describe my morning today.
I'm kinda depressed on something. Haiz.
Whatever it is, to hell with it.
Hey, over my dead body first okay.
5 words.
Go fuck yourself okay fagot.

Ooh shit i'm late.
Taxi then.

Miracle.

2009-07-12T22:55:00.005+08:00

"Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind"

Patience and perseverance are the key before achieving something new.
It needs two hands to clap.
I'm just praying that everything will go smoothly.
Everything needs to start from scratch.
From hard bottom.
Always keep this in my mind.
" For every good deeds we do, brings good life for us in future."

strange son

2009-07-12T15:47:00.001+08:00

Psst.

2009-07-08T09:46:00.002+08:00

Hey dear,
You're in school now.
I know it seem so fast but i'm missing you already.
Yes dear. Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter.
Togetherness is all i'm after.
I'm may not be the perfect person for you.
But, i can be the one who can love you.
I choose this beautiful song for us.
I feel it's an another way to impress my heart to you.
Whenever i held your hands, i feel i just can't let it go.
I love you.

Yay. Another brighter side.
I have plans for us.
Let's find time to spent together.
I hope you're not going to KL this weekend.
Flyers maybe? Or cable car? Bungy?
=)

ohh.

2009-07-07T18:47:00.003+08:00

I think is best not to know stuff that might hurt you at the end.
I have no idea why i have this tiff thing in my heart.
I try to explain things to you but i just simply can put it into a sentence.
I thought too much.

"like it if you want to stare much why not come close to me and stare"

It start when this shit guy stare at me.
Stupid guy makes stupid stare.
I just can't tolerate this crap.
Ahhh!

Dear, please help me.
Oh man. Now i regreted.
I'm suppose to spent time with you instead i bend my frustrations.
I really feel bad now.
I'm sorry.
Do forgive me.
I think i'm going to be emo-ing tonight.

I love you no matter whatever past you had.
Let's be strong together and make this a beautiful one.
May god help us.
=)

very cool choir

2009-07-04T18:30:00.002+08:00

oh man this is hilarious.
Thumbs up!

=)

2009-07-01T17:24:00.003+08:00

"... i go around a time or two. Just to waste my time with you.."

Spent time together with you is like so awesome.
=)

All the best for your exams.
Study ahh.

Ice Age after your exams!
Yay.

=)

you and i both love.

2009-06-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

29 June 2009.
It went smoothly.
=)

Study study study.
You must study.
hahaha.

I love you beautiful.

monday

2009-06-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

Monday, monday, monday.
Make it happen.
Oh man. I really feel nervous. Help.
hahahaha.
MONDAY.

=)

i miss you.

2009-06-24T18:20:00.004+08:00

We sing, we hug, we kiss, we hold hands, we walk, we laugh, we talk.
I heard you laughed and i taste the tears.
Of all these that happen.
I miss you beautiful.

Remember
I will always be there for you.
I'm right here waiting.

=)

With you.

2009-06-22T19:45:00.003+08:00

Totally had an awesome day together today .

With you, with you, with you, with you

= )

With every kiss and every hug.You make me fall in love. And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feels, What I feel when I'm with you. :)

scary

2009-06-15T08:11:00.000+08:00

Oh man i wish i was her. haha. =)

lol

2009-06-12T11:30:00.000+08:00

LOL! LMAO.

:)

2009-06-10T19:14:00.006+08:00

Just came home.
What a great day today! Woohoo!
Watched Angels and Demons.
Its toooo draggy!

So, you better pick the movies next okay.
hahhahaha.

=)

Today was like awesome. Very very awesome. Is like for so long i've been waiting to watch a movie, and lastly i was it with her. Haha. Dream come true? :) haha. ohh man. And i think it wont be the last time. Heh. :)

To summon up everything today.

Super great day today.

Wishing more to come. :)

ahhaha. the smell of me?? heh. :) haha. lets go for another one. we have another fun day, okay?

this is funny.

2009-06-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

How i wish the reality shows still have on our local SCV TV. This show is classic.

prank call can be so funny.

2009-06-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

Watch it. Its super hilarious! Trust me.

What will penis do?

2009-06-08T20:56:00.001+08:00

This is funny. Haha. So, now i know what penis feels. Its very lame but funny.

movies.

2009-06-06T13:49:00.002+08:00

'Drag Me To Hell' Theatrical Trailer @ Yahoo! Video

Ohh man. Can like somebody watch movie together with me. Its like getting bored watching movies alone! Ahh. :)

This is so funny.

2009-06-06T08:54:00.001+08:00

This is so funny. Seriously funny.

early shines.

2009-06-04T07:55:00.003+08:00

I woke up very early today. The morning breeze makes me feel so alive. Its drizzling outside. I don't know why i seem not so sleepy today. Maybe today going to be a great day for me. Who knows. I slept with my guitar yesterday. Funny shit ah. I was playing it on my bed and i slept. Maybe i was tired. I make my guitar as my bolster. I woke up laughing to myself. Oh god make it a great day today.

So, yesterday i kept repeating Queen's song on my stereo . Bohemian Rhapsody kept running in my head for the time now. The song's lyric was simply well written. With no chorus, only verse after verse. With a great piano to a opera rock solo to a good bassist to a good drummer to a great voice and to a good lyric. It simply mixture of good combination. That's why they are just top artist in the 70's.

I didn't notice the singer, Freddie Mercury, died after i saw the American Idol finals. When Adam Lambert and Kris Allen sang the Queen song. As a Queen fan i should know it a long time ago. My wrong so i'm sorry.

Freddie Mercury was a song writer and his vocal is powerful. His death brought sadness to the band. He died on November 91, with an age of 41. That is still young for a person to die. He died on a terrible disease or virus in the world; HIV or AIDS. But doctors called it a Bronchial Pneumonia, god know what is that. Is all because he was generally a gay. I just wonder why most rock band last time were like that. Of all i read the meaning of the song by different fans and different artists, i still believe that the meaning of the song behind it, was his personal issue.
Queen had always been my old rock favourite. So rock on.

Just by talking about gays in this world feel abit weird. People, just give them a chance, gay people are also human as us. It's just that what makes them happy is enough. Im not stating the fact that is alright to have gay. But seriously who is us to judge them. Just let them be. When they come to their senses when time comes. So be it.

"Mama, just killed man. Put a gun against his head. Pulled my trigger, now he's dead."

being last child sucks.

2009-06-02T18:54:00.003+08:00

How do you define last child in the family? Most of them will say they are the most pampered child among the family. Why is this so? Is this really true? Or just a theory behind it, that everyone use. Do they really get everything want they want for?

On my opinion , it sucks being the last child. This is true. i didn't get want i wanted from young. Sometimes i just see it as an unfair thing. I just wonder, me being last child is just so sad that i do a very simple mistake is like one big thing. I got scolded on behalf on my siblings for nothing. I forgot to do household chores and get scolded like hell. Why being a last child have to be so difficult arh? Why i see others don't have the same situation as me? Why oh why?
It do hurts me if my mom scolds me, but the fact is i do nothing wrong. As a man i shall not cry, but i did, is just simply hurt me deep.

Sometimes i just wonder why my brothers didn't get that kind of scolding. If i complain to them , all they said were they did that before I was born. Its like crap lah. When they were my age they stop doing chores and everything. I was the one helping mother. I feel rather being not appreciated. I'm not trying to bring matters up, but sometime is just totally not fair. They didn't help to clean the house and yet i'm the one who gets scolding.

Is this really my responsibility? If helping is fine with me. But why make it a responsibility that i have to do it? This is killing me sometime. Now, mom is stressing herself with the house chores. I tried to keep her calm but yet i was accused of being rude. I get scolded again for not helping her. I was accused of being lazy just because im not working. I help her all along and yet she say like this? This is really stupid!!!!!!!! If i have the authority i just want to talk back. Im not being rude. Its just my feelings that i want she to know. We have the strong respect to them. I just wonder. If they don't rexpect us, why must we respect them. Mom are not fair at time. They think that we still a kid that have no brains to think. Im old enough to think what good or bad.

Play me some musics. Im so down.

Sometimes i just just need someone to share my problem with. Im tired of struggling alone. It sucks. God help me.

Strength of the world

2009-05-31T21:47:00.002+08:00

For one day, Avenged Sevenfold - Strength Of The World, was repeating in my itunes. Maybe you guys who are interested in listening to A7X, make your time to listen to this song. Its from the album City Of Evil. I think the song has a great impact. It should be popular here. Let's us here it together. Spare 9mins of your time.

My story starts the day they said "she can't be found"
the news so dark, heart stopped, stood silent without a sound
It's over, she's finished, mother lies with your father and sister too
Cold-blooded, they suffered, shot down by the outlaws after you
Sorrow swallows my screams

Strength of the world! - is on my shoulders
Strength of the world! - is on my side
Strength of the world! - the one true beholder
Ice in my veins! - for those who've died

I've seen my family fade away, you've taken my whole life
There's nothing left to say

Avenged the dead killed all who cross me in my path
Suicidal, I've never planned on coming back
I want it, I need it, revenge is dripping from my teeth
Need nothin', to feel power, and bring the killers to their knees
Nothin' to lose vengeance to gain (you know I'll never be the same)
So taste my breath I'm close behind you (so desperate on your final day)
Sorrow swallows my screams

Strength of the world! - is on my shoulders
Strength of the world! - is on my side
Strength of the world! - the one true beholder
Ice in my veins! - for those who've died

I've seen my family fade away, you've taken my whole life
There's nothing left to say

Sitting in silence with heaven above me I prayed every night by their graves
While I search for closure I feel it no longer
I can't turn my cheek away
I stand before you , I'll sin when I have to
But now I leave your side, to avenge my family's pride

I've seen my family fade away, you've taken my whole life
There's nothing left to say

Strength of the world! - is on my shoulders
Strength of the world! - is on my side
Strength of the world! - the one true beholder
Ice in my veins! - for those who've died

So far forever now alone, a greater punishment on me has been imposed
A killer falling from the light, I miss my family, I'll never be alright

Thats all that she wrote

Avenged Sevenfold is my all time favorite band. Trust me, there are no rock band have ever make lyrics which has an impact in peoples life. A good band makes a good song.

My life.

2009-05-30T17:45:00.004+08:00

i think i got nothing to do since my guitar string was broken. thanks to my talented figures for the high bend on the G-string. haha. like why my must it be the G? coincidence. so here i am blogging.

Sometimes i just wondering why kids nowadays find studying the most hatred thing to do? Yes what i mean is that give studies a chance too ah. At least spare some thought to it and just study for goodness sake.

Yes, i also do agree that studying is stupid. Contradiction? Yes, but it was when i was in secondary. I spent my whole secondary life with pieces of crap in me. I was good in my lower secondary but when in upper secondary, I beginning to be who-give-a-damn about studying. I hate it when people persuaded me to study but in my heart was scolding them. Then i flopped some of my subjects. The only subject i passed was English, Maths and Science. Yes. Bottom in class was not bad afterall. But, it did not even triggered me to study. The subjects were only just pass that's why i was promoted to secondary 4.

Being in secondary 4 was the most stupidest year of all. I had tons of problems beside me. Be it relationship, studies, teachers and even school. I began to rebel with every teachers in school. I even being called an unreasonable, lousy and untalented role model of being a prefect councilor. To me, who gives a damn.
I didn't think i did my N levels that bad. I scored 11 points. So i never been in secondary 5. Yes, its true. I even went in private schools and i repeat 2 times of O levels. But yet both i flopped.

I make my own decision to pursue my studies in ITE. ITE was my super wonderful time to be in. That make me realized the importance of having a good cert. That encouraged me to do well in everything, up till now. What motivated me to study was musics. Music changed my life to be a better person. A good song with a well written lyric makes me changed my thought of life. After 2 years of memorable life in ITE, i managed to get a good grads and manage to be into polytechnic.

So i was not born clever. In fact everyone were born with the same brain. The only thing that changed a person's brain was the way they handle it. Don't ever think that you can't if you did not even try. Perseverance and consistence are the key to achieve a good goal. So what if you are slow. So what if you are stupid. It doesn't matter.

Make study a best companion. Its never too late. Achieve now or achieve later is still an achievement.

weird.

2009-05-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

yes. i am super tired today. soccer today was awesome.

nevermind.

A wise man ever told me. "If you're in a relationship, do you prefer your partner to be open minded, or being jealous over a small thing?"

As for me, yes i do prefer a partner to be an open minded. Who cares who she go out with, but as long as she will always love you. Being in an open minded has its limits. Yes of course you simply don't create any trouble outside.

Just imagine, your partner is jealous over small stupid things. Quarreling will start. Stupid isn't it. You won't have the freedom, even without your partner. So selfish. Where is the trust when they say trust. I'm so pitiful over people who are in this situations. They are often broke up because of jealousy. Serious stupid.

Yes i know, they come and go sometimes. But we still need to stop this from happening. Yes things get heal as time went by. Don't you want to see happy endings in future? Trust them don't hurt them. Make everyday a memorial one. Cherish it. Don't care what people say.

But seriously, jealousy sucks big time. To all lovers out there, kill all jealousy please. haha. Make jealousy a crime.

I think my dear friend bf is jealous. haha. Oh please if you are reading this. Don't worry. Just trust her and everything will be fine.

to sum of all.

2009-05-26T20:01:00.000+08:00

4 years en counting. Remember me alright.

ala crap lah.

2009-05-22T15:18:00.002+08:00

honestly, i'm bored being single. i'm bored of sharing my things on my own. i'm bored of talking on my own in my room. i'm bored of going out alone. i'm bored of no fetching people home. i'm bored on sitting on a cab alone. i'm bored sitting on a bus alone. i'm bored of sitting by the beach alone. i'm bored of make fun of myself alone. i'm bored of driving alone. i'm bored of arguing things alone. i'm bored of looking at my handphone. i'm bored of watching movies alone. i'm bored of walking out alone.

i'm just so bored of doing everything on my own. all i want is a Someone. funny isn't it. but the fact is i'm just too old to find one. or maybe im just too shy to talk. there this girl i've known. unexpectedly we talked like we had known each others for years. but will this be a miracle? will everything change? i hope she feel the same way to. we rarely talk. but at least. i show her my concern. but she doesn't know yet. or i think she might not read my blog. haha. but what is she does. oh man.

oh okay lah. so life has been so great. but on the other hand, it gets boring everyday. boring to wait for NS to come. sometimes i make myself sad. yes true. to much of happiness can kill me. like stabbing me. haha. where lies happiness where there is no sadness. tell me.

ala crap lah.. take care people.

Eggs.

2009-05-16T09:32:00.000+08:00

this is super cute. haha.
watch it and you will know.

A recap.

2009-05-15T12:16:00.002+08:00

I have been reading my past here. I'm so amazed that i managed to overcome my situations. I'm still in one piece up till now. The worries i put through in the past had make me a better person now. I thank god for giving me these challenges in the past. Too grateful indeed. I did laughed at myself while reading all those events i wrote in the past. I even made it up into a song. It's super cool tough. I remember quoting a verse for a song that similarly reflect my past. After the breaking up, which is super stupid situation. The feeling of killing people was in my mind. I felt myself as a zombie.

Every now and then
I drive alone
An open road
Hot summer days
A gentle breeze that feels alright
On the road
And I can't feel the pain
Only strain
Enjoy the sights
I feel alive
Relaxing here just feels alright
Far from home

This verse really made me realised something whenever i drove around.

Another one was a song. Hinder - Without you.
In fact this song change my life to be a better person. It really gives the impact till now whenever i hear this song. Honestly the song really reflect the life i had in the past.

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seeing myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say
I’m fine
Without you

So everything ended up in a sweet victory. A victory that able me to stand strong. No more worries to worry. I'm a free man more like a free bird. A parrot or a pigeon? More likely a CROW. Ya. I'm as free as a free crow. Kill people with my sharp beak. hah.

Graduate OH!

2009-05-13T22:44:00.008+08:00

Ooh yes. I finally graduated. GRADUATE OH! At last, after for so long of waiting. It was held at school's auditorium and it was from 9am till 5pm. It's freaking 8whole hours. The food was bad and the weather is super hot, but it sum up to a very good event. I'm just so thankful to have a very fun and exciting friends and teachers. 2years in ITE was a super incredible yet memorial one ever. I will never forget the years there.
I'm done. I'm so tired.

Pictures do the rest arh.

Thank you mom for being there for me. :)

Lastly, me.

avenged sevenfold.

2009-05-11T20:27:00.003+08:00

i am addicted to Avenged Sevenfold again.
i came across the making of the album Avenged Sevenfold.
super cool. A7X fans these videos are for you all. \m/

Dear God.

A LITTLE PIECE OF HEAVEN

ALMOST EASY

LOST

AFTERLIFE

GUNSLINGER

SCREAM

new song.

2009-05-11T09:10:00.002+08:00

the new song by .
Third day - REVELATION
The song is so addictive.

My life,
Has led me down the road that`s so uncertain
And now I am left alone and I am broken,
Trying to find my way,
Trying to find the faith that`s gone
This time,
I know that you are holding all the answers
I`m tired of losing hope and taking chances,
On roads that never seem,
To be the ones that bring me home

Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I`ve been trying to find my way,
I haven`t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I`ve got nothing without You
I`ve got nothing without You

My life,
Has led me down this path that`s ever winding
Through every twist and turn I`m always finding,
That I am lost again (I am lost again)
Tell me when this road will ever end

Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I`ve been trying to find my way,
I haven`t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I`ve got nothing without You
I`ve got nothing without�

I don`t know where I can turn
Tell me when will I learn
Won`t You show me where I need to go
Oh oh
Let me follow Your lead,
I know that it`s the only way that I can get back home

Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I`ve been trying to find my way,
I haven`t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I`ve got nothing without You
I`ve got nothing without You

Oh, give me a revelation

I`ve got nothing without You
I`ve got nothing without You

forte.

2009-05-08T15:28:00.002+08:00

i think i found my talent.
All i can say driving is my forte. For all along i dream i can be one of the drivers in the formula 1. racer indeed. but of all this is keep holding it back my dreams.
Firstly all it need is to become an experience go-kart driver. But being a go-kart member is way expensive. super expensive indeed. to buy the kart itself cost few thousands. it does not include maintenance and the equipment and the kits.

Hey mom please sponsor me with this go-kart thing. i really into it ah. serious shit. please don't hold back my interest. after those two brothers married im very sure you have more money that what we expected. haha! but you promise me a sport car.
Okay mother, here's the deal. if i get my sport car by next year after all brothers married, you no need to sponsor me with go-kart, okay? haha. as if she read this. haha.

not forgetting HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY.

captured

2009-05-08T14:54:00.003+08:00

at last.
Mas Selamat was captured. again. woohoo!
so Singaporean no more worries. All we have to do is sit and relax and take a good care of ourself! thats all! :) swine flu is around the corner.
and when he was bought back in the island. authorities please do lock him down tightly. no more escape s after this. enough for one who wanted to bring down the airport.

2009

2009-04-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

2009.
the world has been living for 2009 years.
as day goes by the world we are living in is getting older. despite its old, every people pray not to live till the day of Armageddon.
i just can imagine that moment if we still able to survive that long. as all you can see the world is ever changing. there were alot of disaster breakout for the past 10 years.
firstly SARS, Bird Flu, Tsunami and now Swine flu and etc.
these really marks the end of the world. for the past few weeks, every morning it rains heavily. thunder and strong wind occurred every morning this week.
all i pray that nothing will happen to the world. may all the people here be well and save the earth.
God bless us.

2009 Ferrari 599 GTB Fiorano

2009-04-29T15:57:00.005+08:00

i don't know what to blog.
then i came across this

2009 Ferrari 599 GTB FIORANO

this is heavenly! a new model for ferrari! all i wish to have this in the future. its about $300,000.
haha. all i have to do know is dream. dream on lah! this is superb arh. really really superb.

pictures of the car.

super cool lah.
go Ferrari!

so suddenly.

2009-04-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

i have been thinking and thinking and thinking. am i such a fool thinking about things that are not suppose to be thinking? i just wonder. this is life i have to take.
is either i have to take it positively or negatively. it does not really bothers me if you are there or not. but it really makes me feel uneasy. all i wanted is freedom. freedom in life. i just one to make things simple so i can live happily. sometime i do feel alone deep down inside.

i have been mixing around with people of different background. be it good, bad till the worst.
it really widen my thought. it helps me to be a better man. all i can see is, different people have different opinion in their own life.

im entering my own national service real soon. all i can say is im so exited. haha. im lucky that there is friends entering the same time as me. national service is something that can change a boy to a man. so guys be prepare. power ahh! haha.

there is something that bothering me this few weeks. is like i felt a miss to her. it is so sudden.
why im missing someone who doesnt loves me anymore. this is real stupid! fine that's it.

life has been so great. totally.

national service

2009-04-25T17:16:00.003+08:00

oh man.
What CMPB says you have to follow.
P O L I C E
HOME TEAM ACADEMY
08SEPTEMBER2009

B O T A K
hahaha.

time do traveled faster than i thought. i was 11 ten years ago and now im 21.
i have to serve my NS this year;POLICE. catching people i my forte. haha. like real.
WATCH OUT for the MIB, men in blue. They will arrest you if you break the law.
because im the office of the law.

haha. LAME

for all my friends. lets go kick some butts! its NS for goodness sake. nothing can be better that this. friends entering into army, all the best for BMT! haha. left right left right. YES SIR.

NATIONAL SERVICE
can be an ass.
:)

Family gathering.

2009-04-19T20:03:00.003+08:00

the second time. a family gathering.
in fact the whole family.
father, mother, sister's family, 2nd brother' s fiance, 1st brother's girlfriend and me.
my turn is yet to come. way far long. maybe is me that's not ready to find a replacement. nvm
its okay. we had a family feast. oh great.
a happy family makes a happy life.

some how rather. i have a great life. current waiting for that irritating letter from the NS.
can like come quickly can. i'm like so jealous lah. if not, i will be in school tomorrow arh.
nvm 2 years is not long.. but its 2 freaking year arh. oh man. shit shit.
with all the NS life. left right left right. push ups, sit ups, jumping jack. wah.
it deprived my NCC life man. praying hard i will be in the army this year.

people in poly im in ns.
good job CMPB.
give you the credit for this.
arrgh.

Classical.

2009-04-12T19:07:00.001+08:00

Emmy Rossum.
Her voice is spectacular.
and she is only 22.
great.

phantom of the opera

2009-04-09T07:20:00.003+08:00

The Phantom of the Opera.
i have been addicted to this movie.
rotting at home watching this everyday.
the opera was superb!
the angel of music.
the songs kept inside my hear.
the phantom.
haha.
:)

NS can be a sucking thing.

2009-04-06T20:35:00.001+08:00

First the good news.
Now the bad news.
I HAVE TO SERVE NS FIRST.
like WTH.
arggh.

happy man!

2009-04-03T15:10:00.003+08:00

oh yeah.
SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC.
AEROSPACE ELECTRONICS
here i come.
hahaha!
yes like finally.
all my hard work paid off.
happy.

thanks to all teachers!
thanks to my parents!
thanks to my siblings!
thanks to my cousins! haha.
thanks to all my friends!
thanks to the world!
thanks to GOD! :)
thanks for your support guys!
appreciate it alot.

do not prank black people.

2009-03-26T19:58:00.002+08:00

super hilarious.

this is super funny!

2009-03-25T09:01:00.001+08:00

i wish our country has this.
these videos are super funny.
this show why people are dumb in someways. haha.
watch it!

jenga pistol anyone?

2009-03-24T10:17:00.001+08:00

people who loves to play jenga.
this is super coolness.
Jenga Pistol?

movies.

2009-03-23T11:19:00.002+08:00

my hoilday movies.

a must watch.

but its in april.
damn.

american idol

2009-03-21T22:24:00.004+08:00

American Idol.
i have been following this year season.
this season, the most competitive one; all can sing very well.
after all, what i can predict, the top 3 finalist.
DANNY GOKEY, ALLISON IRAHETA and ADAM LAMBERT.
vote for them. *like real*
:)

video to share. is hilarious.

2009-03-16T17:31:00.001+08:00

supernatural spirits.

2009-03-15T16:08:00.003+08:00

do you believe in spirits or demon?
as for me, i rather not be into this.
but i do believe it.
just imagine someone you knew, and the whole family is being cursed.
scary right. yes it is. what i thought there is nothing of this sort anymore.
but i was wrong.
.
.

sometimes i just don't understand humans nowadays. they just take everything for granted.
transferring demons just to make things more difficult. And the most complicating reason is they used demons just to make sure the other party accept his love that is being rejected.
its so damn stupid lah. like there are no other girls in this world.
the thing is, its a fact. its happening now.
i feel so pity for them, they have to bring all the priest just to cure their family.
hey come on guys. don't tell me if you are being rejected, you can't accept the fact and fate. look forward please. there are still others for sure.

all i pray is for my family to be safe from spiritual demons.
may god safe me and my family.
amin.

school no more.

2009-03-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

at last.
finished my last paper for today.
so overall of both papers.
i think i scored an A and a B.
haha. nvm.
SO.
NO MORE SCHOOL!
haha.
Im going to miss my ite friends ahh.
like seriously. there are the most kecohrable people to mix with.
all we did last was make fun of people. hide things. haha.
like serious going to miss the fun we had.
So guys contact as always okayy.
hahaha. hope to see you guys at TEKONG. BOTAK! haha.

EXAM!

2009-03-08T19:53:00.002+08:00

yeahh! exam is this this week.
in fact it starts TOMORROW!
coolness.
damn fast.
all the best for all who take exams as me!
haha.
:)

schools ending soon.
damn im gonna miss the friends there.
it is so fun being in that school.
of all the laughter i got.
so soon.
no regrets.

Girlfriend in dreams can

2009-03-05T21:48:00.002+08:00

Meet my new girlfriend.

In my dreams!
haha.

DEMI LOVATO

fcuk! haha. dream on!
:)

what a mates!

2009-03-05T21:35:00.004+08:00

Schools getting near end.
Tomorrow is the last day.
2 years is extremely fast! yes all agreed.
I am really gonna miss that school for sure!

so today was the 2nd last day.
we did all the crazy stuff in the library!
cool or what man.
:)

Memories are meant to be keep.
haha. asshole classmates.

wah. wasted.

2009-03-03T20:24:00.002+08:00

Wah. Super wasteddd..
I can't go to the concert this coming 10 March.
Exam exam exam.
die die die.
Stress stress stress.
:)

brother.

2009-03-01T21:34:00.003+08:00

HAPPY ENGAGEMENT!!
To my dearest 2nd brother.

May god bless you and your fiance.
See your adik so good one.
I become your chauffeur today ah.
haha.
:)

funny quote i learn today!
"oh mak kau baik!"
sometimes my cousins are lame ass ah.
funny funny funny.

Happy birthday.

2009-02-25T19:42:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me!

haha. finally 21.
thanks for the wishes guys.
haha. being bashed.
:)
great great great.

Nevermind.

2009-02-24T19:26:00.001+08:00

Hey, cheerup.
haha.. i am so don't worry.
Finally, he found out that she is with someone and that's okay.

LKY

2009-02-23T22:02:00.003+08:00

We had our Lee Kuan Yew presentation.
With all different projects competing.
Im abit pissed.
Biasness everywhere.
But nevermind it happens smoothly.
All i hope is getting to the top.
Best of Luck!

Exam coming!!!!
Mugging mugging mugging...
die die die.
:)

am i ready for it? god help!

2009-02-22T19:11:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just kept thinking to myself. am i really ready for this again. its not that i don't have the confidence but its just to early or maybe to soon for me. A girlfriend. or i can say in my own word my life partner. On the other hand. i willing to share my feeling with someone i like. the point is i am shy. its stupid lah. how can i boost my confidence? its killing me. or its just me. it is hard to confess the love for someone? it is so annoying. tell me. all i start thinking is the 'what if's' why cant i get straight to the point and get it over with. why is it so hard. haha. now brother introduce me to her girlfriend's sister. wah what am i going to do man. omg. haha! die die die. god help me on this.
:)

one word.

2009-02-18T22:14:00.002+08:00

one word.
HAPPY!
haha..
happy gila dok.
i have never been this happy of my entire life.
today was so happening.
friends are fcuking awesome.
i never been laughing so much before.
power arh.
everyday seem so gerek.
hahahahaa~!
Japanese girls are cute. i think. haha..
lame ass.
:)

oh i'm starting to like myself more.

2009-02-15T20:19:00.004+08:00

Febuary,
you make my month.
A superb incredible month.
haha..
yes.
Firstly, i just get my GST money for $400. (super coolness!)

Secondly, im getting my car real real real soon. so waiting for that Swift Sport. (coooolnesss.)

Thirdly, i got one letter. Bursary award. (super cool or what.) $400. But super sad. Its doesnt meet the stupid criteria. $4000 of total gross income. Super little! My family was more than $4000. sighh.. ohh well. No money. Haha...

Lastly, birthday.
ohh well....
:)

hmm.

2009-02-15T08:17:00.002+08:00

My birthday draws nearer whenever i think of valentines.
Thats sucks.
haha. im getting a year older.
OMG. dah tua man. haha..
:)

cool friday the thirteen

2009-02-13T20:43:00.002+08:00

All i can say i had super fun today.
Firstly went to school, best of all most of us came.
Fucking cool man. I had never came across the class to be so cool.
haha.The class was so kecoh-able. Coolness.
So after school went karaoke-ing.
Super fun lah.. Laugh like hell.
StressFREE. haha.
Baik kepe.
Today is baik.

Waohh... Tomorrow VALENTINES' day.
Sadden.
Shit ass.. haha!
Nevermind.....
Wish All Couple.
HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY.

Underworld Rise of the lycans.

2009-02-11T20:28:00.002+08:00

Watched this just now.
Its worth the money spent!
Watch it.
The violence is superb incredible!
4/5 rating.

happy :)

2009-02-08T21:02:00.003+08:00

yes!
im extremely happy.
wahh.. happy with my life right now.
happy with the environment around me.
happy. happy. happy.

i am getting my car real soon.
yes! CAR. i just can't imagine me having my own car.
baik pe.

just can wait!

yes my mom is going to buy this for me!
haha!
Fiat Grande Punto.
but need to choose a suitable colour for my ride.
real soon.
:)

the red jumpsuit apparatus

2009-02-04T11:26:00.003+08:00

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Lonely Road

Check it out!

i think i like alternative and soft rock now.

2009-02-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

yes yes. i think i like alternative rock for now.
or soft rock it other form.
haha.. their songs are more suitable to listen.
just got to listen to their song called
The Fray.
or maybe there so much more like
Gavin DeGraw, Gavin Rossdale.
I think im just too slow to catch up to their songs.. am i?
who cares anyway.
found out the bands at youtube.
at last i found out youtube can be reliable.
:)
For now i think no more hard rock for me.
but i still hard rock musics are better.
go figure.
haha, contradicting.
lame ass.

so bored.

2009-02-01T17:13:00.001+08:00

I have been laying myself on my bed
Just thinking what else can be said.
Rhyming words? Poetry.
Or even bed time story.

A song is much more helpful to me
When writing out something interesting,
Makes people feel , worth-ing?
Let me think. Is it worth reading?
I'm hoping.

A good poetry doesn't even need good English.
Most importantly, the words can make you
Bliss, Sorrow or even Avenging.

How about writing one simple song.
Will the song tag along?
With society,
people involve around me, eventually.

This is what i do when i get bored.
Strumming my guitar playing different chord.
Thinking if my songs can be bought.
I guess now, I'm out of thought.

Moving on and on.

2009-01-27T12:19:00.003+08:00

Moving on.
The complexities are moving in,
and I feel that I do not have the strength,
to carry on.
tragedies plaguing me solemnly,
Its affecting my will.

And I felt down, I need you there.
Every note and every word seems so hard to take.
Finally, we were destined.

Don't you realize what you've done?
How could you betrayed the man who brought salvation through your pain.
He must mean everything.
Until, you end it with all this shameful way.

But how could you go and throw it all away?
But in my dreams it's me and you,
and it's there I saw, it all come true.

Just did it for the love.
Just remember, I'm not your enemy.

I felt so down now, when you're not around.
Sometimes problems seem too deep to take.
Sometimes I cry thinking my future looks so bleak.

Now, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone all alone, took all my strength
I've made the change

Moving on and on...

Tension is calling me.

2009-01-21T21:44:00.002+08:00

Every now and then,
I drive alone.
An open road.
Hot summer days.
A gentle breeze that feels alright.
On the road.
And I can't feel the pain,
Only strain.
Enjoy the sights,
I feel alive.
Relaxing here just feels alright.
Far from home..

if i was perfect.

2009-01-17T14:36:00.002+08:00

I’ve been traveling for so long.
So lost til I stumbled upon.
Two roads in front of me, I had to take my time.

If I was perfect.
Than this would be easy
Even though it’s plausible,
I know I can drown
I walk through this city.
With no rules to guide me.
I realize it’s difficult,
But now, I can see.

I may not be perfect.
But i've always been true.
I may not be worthy in your eyes.
Yes.
I climbed up from the bottom.
For the last time.

Even though is hard
i will put it through.
Even if im lost
i will find myself through.

there will always be another way.
when its much more feasible.

i make decisions one at the time.
i never say im always right.
but, i am confident when i stand up on my own.
be seeing the truest form of a man
that im trying to prove.

if i was perfect.
god help me.

Stare At The Sun

2009-01-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

I sit here clutching useless lists,
keys for doors that don't exist
I crack my teeth on pearls
I tear into the history
Show me what it means to me in this world
Yeah, in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind

I see the parts but not the whole
I study saints and scholars both
No perfect plan unfurls
Do I trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind (till I understand or go blind)

I know that there's a point I've missed
A shrine or stone I haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But I can't help feeling like I'm

Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign (waiting for a sign)
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes (and I won't close my eyes)

Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes

blogging.

2009-01-15T20:08:00.002+08:00

Haha! yeahh.
after so long.
so far my life has been great. but on the other hand im worried for my health.
i have been undergo some problems.
i really hope i can be well.
i need someone by my side. really.
if you are willing.
.
.
.
can i know more about you?
haha. sape ehh?
=)

2009

2009-01-03T21:15:00.002+08:00

im so lazy to blog now.
all i can say 2008 tough ride for me.
yess. haha.
So is kind late i think.
HAPPY 2009 to ALL!!
resolution:
1) be extra happy.
2) time to save money.
3) car? (can i?)
4) good result.
5) forget my 2008.

best companion.

2008-12-30T19:58:00.003+08:00

LOOK!
This is my companion for today.
Photocopier Machine!
haha!
Woah today was so tiring.
hardly sit!
its totally jack in the ass man.
lucky tomorrow is half day. thank god for that.
New year eve tomorrow! good that i am still alive till now.
amen.
haha. cant wait for friday. LAST day of working~!
Cant you believe that. i cant. is like too quick. like 3weeks already.
it damn fast i tell you.
tomorrow last day of the year. woah its like yesterday was the first day of the year.
haha.

the song (it's too late already.)

2008-12-27T11:26:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry that it took so long
to write this song
but i gave up
you see one million words can't describe
how it feels
to know your love

where did i go wrong?
i should have told you from the start
that i'm closer then you think
when we're apart
nothing that i've tried
is as simple as this line

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so i try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

i swear i'm giving up my inside
to the one
that i adored
i know this world is big enough
for you and i
but i'll give you more

i'm coming home today
to wipe the tear drop from your eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life
nothing that i've done
has ever been for one

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so i try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

my life is incomplete
my rights are absolutely wrong
so wake me up
before you leave today
something i need to say
cause they'll be nothing when you're gone

scare tactics. funny!

2008-12-26T19:48:00.001+08:00

The Greatest Scare Tactics Prank Ever

haha. family eat out.

2008-12-24T22:59:00.004+08:00

When west mall.
Sister was so thoughtful, she treat the whole family.
Bali Thai. Sawadikarp. =)
the food was err okayy ahh. not that nice.
its nice to have a family event like this.
i want to go holiday ah.

Drove the car. cool.

Bali thai.

Parents can be cute couples at times. haha. =)

food? okay ah.

And lastly.
To all Christians.
Merry Christmas!
hohoho.
=)

fucking funny shit.

2008-12-22T20:07:00.002+08:00

i came across this video.
wah. is extremely funny!
watch it and you know. haha!

Giant Cell Phone Guy